Reflections.

Monday, January 29, 2007

.Drive.

Whee! wat a good few days it has been! First and foremost, I got to drive around again! Man, its been so long..and my hands and feet have been craving for some 4 wheeled action :D So glad tt my parents decided to rent a car for the weekend as we had some outings planned...in actual fact, we only went out as a family bout twice! haha! But hey, it worked out well for me cos I had the car to myself for the rest of the time :DD
The car was nice & smooth to drive...it was a Toyota Altis. But if anyone out there is planning to buy it, juz be prepared for a serious lack of power..but hey, its a FAMILY car..so guess u cant expect much from it :P
It felt really good to be able to drive pple around...in a completely non-military environment ;) Dunno la, it juz feels a lot more fun and fulfilling to drive pple around on a friendly & casual level/manner. And for those who got a ride in the car, let it be known that it was MY PLEASURE driving ya'll around! haha! Here's to more fun car rides (hopefully) *cheers!*
Today was the last day I had the car and so i decided to make use of it one last time ;) Got up early and went to pic cheryl up at her place @ 8. I reached there at 7.55am and she was askin me why i was so early -_- . We then proceeded to pick Pam up at her place. Well, Pam and I kinda had a deal.. that she would drive herself all the way to J8 and then proceed to take an MRT to work :) So we went on as planned...with Cheryl freaking out in the backseat..lol! Weird how one female doesn't trust another when it comes to driving..OH WELL ;P hehe! But hey, take it from me pam, U drive well..And REALLY safely! haha! U gotta learn to relax ya? loosen up a lil when on the roads :) I'm glad to have been able to have provided u with the opportunity :) So after Pam dropped herself off, Cheryl & I proceeded to Ya Kun for breakfast..cool! haha..its not everyday tt I get to eat a good breakfast..let alone with someone at a place like Ya Kun. It felt good man! haha
We decided to walk around a lil bit after tt...when we bumped into Chris. Headed over to S11 with him to accompany him while he had breakfast. That was when he invited me to join him at the gym later in the afternoon...and I said ok :D
Joined him and Adrian Sim at the SingPower gym at abt 2.30... and we basically ran,drank water, and lifted weights. At the end of it all, chris and i decided to weigh ourselves and to our astonisment, we put on about a kilo each! haha! Chris concluded tt it was the water tts causing the instant weight gain and we went on to do a lil experiment. We weighed him 1st,then got him to drink a cup of water..then weighed him again..and guess wat? He put on an amazing 0.2kgs! haha! water is evil! oh well ;P
Overall, it was a good experience..and I'm lookin forward to more of em!

8:45 PM

Friday, January 26, 2007

Ok, its 3.45 am and i'm awake viewing random videos ;P I came across this vid and it got me thinking...is there even a remote possibility to love someone even before you meet/find out about them? As in u never knew this person even existed till the day u met him/her.

I dunno man..sounds like too much of a longshot for me..but hey, its a nice song and its real sweet to even imagine the possibility of it happening ;) ok...i dunno why i'm feelin a bit emo right now..think i need to start sleeping early! hahah! Well, enjoy the video la..

3:53 AM

enough.

Pple tend to spend more time with certain pple for whatever reason...and that too changes from time to time. So one moment i can be like talkin to u everyday and the next..well, prolly once a fortnight, due to the fact tt i'm talkin to/spending time with other pple too. That doesnt mean that I care any less for u or I have feelings for the other person or I dun wanna talk to u anymore!! Pple, I'm human too..so i gotta ration out my time and whatever else I have among everyone...juz like everyone out there. And hey, I talk to A LOT of pple...guys, girls and even the occasional animal..So pls try and understand :D
So for the record, I'm tryin to be nice to everyone (animals like monitor lizards included), I DON'T HAVE FEELINGS FOR ANYONE and I'll talk to/hang out with who i like, when i like.
Keep smiling ya'll :D

-Give us wisdom, Lord-

12:46 AM

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

....*creak*

Hmm..had a meeting with Nic snr yesterday. It was good :D I had a nice time tellin him about the goings-on in my life and sharing my concerns. it felt good to literally pen down my thoughts/reflections on my past, present and future. Usually, it would juz stop at discussing stuff. Now I can refer back to this important piece of paper and guide myself as I take new steps.
One main thing did mean a lot to me during that session..it was about my maturity. I looked back and realised how far i'd come and it didn't hurt when nic commented that he understood my choice in not wanting help in certain things because he sees and understands tt I've grown/matured enough to pretty much stand on my own in certain areas. This go-getter attitude is bringing me places and I like it ;D
But as much as i realise it, I guess its really important that those around me realise it too.
Cos i honestly dun wanna look bossy or appear as some sort of a Mr. Know-it-all. Cos i feel that as we go through every single thing that life has in store for us, we emerge stronger eventually (hopefully) due to the lessons learnt. At least that's how it should be. And i feel its only right that we share our experiences and knowledge on things with pple who are going thru similar patches in their lives. But it gets really odd when pple dont exacctly receive your advice/comments very well. When I talk to pple, sometimes it seems like I'm standing on creaky floorboards..and as I take a step closer to the person (not literally), the boards creak..and I try to be cautious and not appear to be an inquisitive & intrusive nut..but sometimes, they dont hold...cracks appear and the whole situation goes up in smoke. But hey, I know I do it in all sincerity..to help. And I'm sure most of us do.
Guess some of us would say that pple juz wanna be left alone sometimes. True. Its also true that sometimes, pple should juz learn things the 'hard way'..falling, picking themselves up and moving on after dusting off. Experience is the best teacher :)
But at the end of the day, I guess I cant help myself from being concerned about A LOT of things tt go on around me...to a point where its stressful to juz think of pple. Its juz me I guess :D Its a weird line..between being a friend and being intrusive...and it does vary from person to person. But I guess I'm pretty much gonna stay the same... I wanna be a friend, that's all :D In case i've ever been intrusive or have offended anyone with my methods of approach, i'm sorry.. But pls do try see where i'm comin from too. Its all about understanding ya ;)
I'm relly glad tt I'm taking up psychology..at least its gonna help me understand pple better & communicate better. Now this, I'm lookin forward to :) It seems pretty daunting ya noe..to go into the finer details of how pple think...how the mind works..It seems pretty deep and u'll never know what u'll find in there. But hey, if I'm serious about people and understanding them/working with them better, this is something I ought to do :) In actual fact, I'm liking it already :D
On a dfferent note, i was listening to Corrinne May's Angel in Disguise earlier on and I couldn't help but be moved by the lyrics...and they get to me every time i listen to the song :) Its a great song...and it has a part that goes like this:

Take a look at the ordinary
Don’t need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise

Man..how true. It's more than juz a song..damn..:P

-simplify- :)

11:42 PM

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

....its gonna be alright.

the world needs it.
comfort.
hope.
love.
strength.
go out and grab 'em...
help someone achieve the same, while u're at it
and for whatever reason, dont prevent yourself or others from gettin them.
keep smiling...and the world will smile with you
its true
you'll be alright...i'll be alright...we'll all be alright
right now, where'e the love?
i dun really know
but its somewhere out there
we either find it
or spread it...
share it.
cos we've got it in us
i tell myself:
hurts will hurt
and time will heal
juz gotta have faith :)
doesnt hurt having friends too ;)
ahh..the pleasure in appreciating the simpler things in life
have you HONESTLY thanked God for
the rain?
the hug u received?
the friend tt never left?
the food on your table?
the gift of sight, speech and hearing?
...and countless others
I wonder why..
why i decided to be so random.
I really dont know.
the mind is a nice place :D

-God Bless-

2:09 AM

Sunday, January 14, 2007

...in memory of

Things are looking up :) and I'm really glad. Honestly, i feel it..the passion, the drive, the energy, the love and the faith...its all comin back. YESHAAA!!! haha! well, i think taking a step back and looking around..taking time to appreciate things has definitely helped..I've calmed myself down and I'm starting to do things like I used to ;D I know all this sounds familiar..cos i've talked bout it previously..but the juz keeps getting stronger each day and I cant help but brag bout it.. Man, cos it means the world to me to be able to give my best to the pple that mean the world to me ;)
Well, I got reminded bout sumthin during lunch today... Terrence Woo was reminiscing bout the trip we made to Payatas a few years back and he talked bout how I was kinda the 'wildlife' guy in the group...with the way i was identifying the diff types of animals and how I juz loved being close to nature in Anawim.
That got me thinking... bout how many hours i would spend in front of the telly juz overdosing on nature programs..ESPESCIALLY those involving the late Steve Irwin. Honestly, the guy was my hero/idol... Cos he has, by far, done WAY more than any other person in his field. He BROUGHT the wild to our living rooms and educated us on things like conservation, appreciation and respect for all things great and small.
His passing still kinda gets to me every now and then..and I'm wondering why I haven't given him a tribute of sorts, on my blog..oh well... But hey, guess its not too late now..The man deserves it.
Here's what i wrote to CNN.com when they set up a tribute section on thier site last year...Steve, this' for you:

Steve will always be a monumental figure in wildlife conservation. I regret for never having a chance to meet him in person but I feel deeply saddened by his passing for he has left a lasting impression in our hearts as a wildlife activist, animal lover, educator and hero. Personally, he has taught me more about the wild than any zoo i've visited. My heartfelt condolences to his family and to all who knew him. We're gonna miss you steve..But rest assured, your work and legacy will live on in the millions that you've inspired. R.I.P Mate.

I dun really know how this post is gonna 'sound' but hey, I dun mean to be morbid, I'm not gay and this is my personal friggin space :)

10:56 PM

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Keep the faith man...RIGHT...

I had a friend come up to me and let me in on a lil sumthin...thank you for tellin me all that u did (you know who you are). Whatever i heard hit me hard..
Its really weird man...with pple all around...claiming to be nice and 'holy' when they're nowhere close to it. Come on man..drop the act and try be a lil genuine. It pisses me off..a lil...to think that, here I am, TRYING to be a better person..as much as I can and someone comes along to spoil it all for me by saying that everything I do, is done with an ulterior motive. Wah..thanx ah..and I've worked my ass off for THIS??
But hey, know what? Screw this shit la..I'm gonna continue anyway..cos I know where I'm coming from and I dare say I'm staying true to all i believe in.. that I'm stayin true to HIM, the best i can. So go ahead and say all U want..I'm not gonna let it affect me. Ok, I'm gonna try to keep it from getting to me ;) ahh well..
On a lighter note, I went to pick Angel up at the airport yesterday. Welcome back to the 'hood, yo!! ;D Cheryl was supposed to follow me to the airport...but she bailed out at the last min (I was already at the interchange when she msged me -_-) due to bad tummy cramps. But it wasn't too bad la..I had a good, peaceful time ogling at the HOT stewardesses from Qantas and British Airways ;D Ok, sue me..I'm a guy!! hahaa! Headed back to Julia's since Angel will be putting up there for the duration of her visit.
Went for dinner soon after and Cheryl managed to get her butt out of the toilet in time to join us :D It was really funny the way Angel couldn't even remember where Thompson Plaza was, but could remember the EXACT POSITIONING OF A CERTAIN ESCALATOR WITHIN THE BUILDING!! hahaaha! I'm still laughing! Another funny thing was the way the auntie at the Fisball Mee stall told me to wait for my Footballs as they were still being boiled...I looked at her confused and she said 'Footballs' again! It took her assistant to correct her mistake and then she was like 'oh, sorry ah, Fishball!' -_-' I dunno man..but maybe we stumbled upon sumthin big here..Since S'poreans like eating and soccer so much..maybe, in like 40 years time, they'll be selling boiled footballs! cool! I'll reserve a bowl of the Addidas 'Teamgeist' balls (size 3 pls)! hehe! :P

Oh crap..I think I need therapy! help! haha!

1:39 AM

Monday, January 08, 2007

..... and I'm feeling randomly thoughtful

I'm in a reflective mood again.. I feel its time for me to re-look (once again) at how i've been approaching the diff situations that life has ben throwing at me recently. I dunno man..I feel like i've not been so nice to pple..and I've like handled a few sensitive topics in the worst way possible..ok, maybe not worst, but pretty badly la.
Its saddening that i've kinda got to look for the nice guy in me every now and then..'he' doesnt seem to be around 24/7 like he used to..oh no. I don't wish to point fingers and say who caused this change, but its definitely not entirely my fault :D Oh well..
But hey..I know its not all that serious or anyting...I'll get over it..and i promise to be nice, IF EVERYONE COOPERATED!! haha! ;)

Ok, coming back to pretty much the main reason behind this entry...I was asked to update my blog by Pam, cos she was bored..so i kinda agreed to help keep her mind occupied while she was online, by coming up with this entry.
So i told myself that I should blog..and here I am bl0gging. It is kinda fast...I told myself that i should blog..my brain processed it..and a while later, my fingers reacted to the signals sent by my brain and here i am typing away. Cool.
Blog I shall, I told myself..and blog I did. I'm being nice already :D I'm blogging to help rid someone of her boredom. So I am blogging..like now..wow. Typin I am.. weee. So, here it is, the blog entry..the one which I told myself i would do. What started out as a suggestion slowly became an idea and eventually ended up as this entry..made up of two parts (of sorts)..The 1st part being pretty sensible (to me at least) and the 2nd being..well..rather nonsensical.
So I'm telling myself that I should blog more often now..like type stuff. You know, like post new entries..blog?! I should type stuff in the "Create New post" box..like i am doin now. I think this is like...blogging. Typing stuff tt u feel like typing..and right now, I feel like this :D I'm gonna type stuff more often...somethin like what i'm doing now..I'll tell myself that i should blog..and I'll go do juz that. I'll post new stuff more often!! yay!!
We all should blog...but I WILL blog...and I juz realised that I'm blogging about blogging...about ME blogging. wah... I'm also typing about typing...whoa.. hmm..wonder if i'm posting about posting too ;) man... im so randomly typing random things...im drowning in randomness!!
ok i'll stop now..hope its enough!! hahaah!!

HELP :D haha!!

12:20 AM

Thursday, January 04, 2007

....In the mood for songs..again.

Been listening to all sorts of songs lately..I dunno why. The past 2 or 3 days have been FILLED with songs...its almost like I'm overdosing :p It kinda brings me to another place/time..allows me to be free, of sorts, for a while..and i like it ;) Even went through all the trouble to find lyrics for each song!
Dunno when i'm gonna like slow down with the songs..but hey, it works..while it lasts. Ok, I realise how random this post is..but what the heck..and by the way, Augustana is GOOD! Do check them out. :D

12:57 PM

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

I like the song..and felt it was appropriate at this time ;)

Time Of Your Life (Green Day)

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

Cheers!

1:49 AM

...Lets Go

And so, it is the 2nd day of 2007. Looking back, I gotta say, '06 has been one heck of a year! So many things went on..I was given opportunities to go places and experience things that I never thought were possible. It has pretty much been a wild ride...with its share of highs and (really) lows.
My life basically 'restarted' after the 8th of Dec..the day I left the brotherhood of the Green. Sadly tho, the month of Dec was kind of a blur..it juz went past so darn fast, I couldn't take time to savour the sweet moments. But i'm glad for everything that I did manage to enjoy...things like getting my driving license, youth camp, impromptu outings and various 'hang-out' sessions with pals.
Well, I think its safe to say that it was a good year la..one where the nice events outweighed the bad ;)
I hope '07 will turn out juz the same.. I'm looking at this year as an opportunity to sort of pick up where i left off bout 2 yrs back. My 1st step would be to head back to school :) Guess I gotta start working too. But more importantly, I gotta get my faith back on track.. I seem to have somewhat lost touch with God..
It seems weird but i'm actually not too worried abt it :) Cos i noe that i juz have to try harder this time..and there are so many opportunities out there juz waiting to be siezed. I know its not easy being a good christian, but hey, its damn well worth the trouble! I'm feeling more like my old self each day (and its a good thing)..the energy is building again and i dont wanna let it go ;)
So, come what may..I'm ready to face it all, with lotsa help form those around me and the Man above, of course ;)

**Stick together, Team!**

12:43 AM