In the mood for...myself

Guess its juz the current happenings tt have gotten me into this rather thoughtful mood again.. I dun quite like bein in this mood cos it kinda gets me down juz thinking bout lotsa things tt have been happening...bcos they're mostly 'bad'..

Of all the things tt were goin thru my mind, one thing bugs me the most.. friendship. Honestly, wat does friendship mean? As far as I'm concerned, it's love, care, understanding, warmth & support..and have I been a person of all these qualities? Maybe not all the time, but i guess so. Then i look ard me and i wonder if everyone else thinks of it the same way..& the way i see it, it's disappointing.

I know i can't expect the same from everyone..its unfair. But if u're gonna go ard sayin tt u wanna be a friend to others, u gotta at least put in a little bit of DECENT effort! Show some traits of a friend man.. I know pple fail and its human to make mistakes..but don't do things blatantly & hope u can get away with it ;) Its safe to say tt if u truly cared for someone, u wouldnt want to hurt the person in a 'destructive' way.

In recent times, i really feel like i'm bein made use of..having my 'nice-ness' taken for granted. Its hard being nice in this world, i know..but if I'm trying, y cant some others do the same?? Dont tell me its difficult..cos if u wanna be a friend, u gotta go out and try BE ONE..it's a commitment ya know??!

Honestly, I'm tired of being told wat to do by pple who have no friggin idea bout friendships themselves! So, to whoever it may concern, pls stop ur nonsensical behaviour and take steps toward being a better pal. It wouldnt hurt U, me, or the world. Try la...conciously..tats all I ask. Oh, and it'll help if could take that thing abt being as Christ to others seriously. I'm being stretched to my limits right now. Don't expect me to be quiet forever..so I'd appreciate if you could start making changes to your attitude NOW...If u truly care abt me..abt how i feel.. ABOUT BEING A FRIEND.

* This is aimed at no one in particular. But if u do feel offended or anything, maybe its time u did a bit of reflection..on how much of a friend u have been all along; not just to me, but everyone else as well