So you do realise it? And yet you choose to remain this way? I know you're not a sadist...so why do you keep on doin that? The thought that you could smile when sayin that you realise how you've been.... It's piercing.
Why huh? Did I deserve that? You turn it all on me all the time...it's always my fault...right? Or was it? To choose to journey with you, to make those promises and to STICK to the promises with my all...to care, to give of myself in ways that I have NEVER given before? All the time, the care, the love, the concern...have they all come together in a big pile of nothing-ness? Have they ended up as things done with an ulterior motive?? My...to call this is a very sad moment would be a gross understatement...
I AM STLL WILLING TO TAKE IT ALL. Nobody likes to be treated like a doormat...But hey, I dun feel like that..and even if it seems that way, I know I have a good reason behind why I'm still going at it... even when things seem this way. I have always tried to be true..and yes it really hurts when you throw it all back in my face like that... I'm human too..but nevermind you know...sometimes, life calls for us to be better than we normally are. And you, are reason enough. But please, cut me some slack. No matter what, i'm still here, willing to give you that opportunity to learn and grow and see the tuth in me. You know how I feel towards you..its the SAME before and that's the way it will be. ALWAYS.
Never say you don't have a choice. A promise is a promise. Now give that promise a chance. Seriously. And give it a chance WITH ALL YOUR HEART.
P.s. I'm sorry for using the word 'why'... P.p.s. For all those thinking of a career in the Psych/Counselling line, please think hard. It has it rewards..but it's definitely not for the weak at heart.
- please, I dont know how much longer... but I'm willing -
6:44 PM
.::ME::.
Edward Isaac
22 =)
ak_hybrid@hotmail.com
Youth Liturgy Ministry, CTK
