Reflections.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

....*creak*

Hmm..had a meeting with Nic snr yesterday. It was good :D I had a nice time tellin him about the goings-on in my life and sharing my concerns. it felt good to literally pen down my thoughts/reflections on my past, present and future. Usually, it would juz stop at discussing stuff. Now I can refer back to this important piece of paper and guide myself as I take new steps.
One main thing did mean a lot to me during that session..it was about my maturity. I looked back and realised how far i'd come and it didn't hurt when nic commented that he understood my choice in not wanting help in certain things because he sees and understands tt I've grown/matured enough to pretty much stand on my own in certain areas. This go-getter attitude is bringing me places and I like it ;D
But as much as i realise it, I guess its really important that those around me realise it too.
Cos i honestly dun wanna look bossy or appear as some sort of a Mr. Know-it-all. Cos i feel that as we go through every single thing that life has in store for us, we emerge stronger eventually (hopefully) due to the lessons learnt. At least that's how it should be. And i feel its only right that we share our experiences and knowledge on things with pple who are going thru similar patches in their lives. But it gets really odd when pple dont exacctly receive your advice/comments very well. When I talk to pple, sometimes it seems like I'm standing on creaky floorboards..and as I take a step closer to the person (not literally), the boards creak..and I try to be cautious and not appear to be an inquisitive & intrusive nut..but sometimes, they dont hold...cracks appear and the whole situation goes up in smoke. But hey, I know I do it in all sincerity..to help. And I'm sure most of us do.
Guess some of us would say that pple juz wanna be left alone sometimes. True. Its also true that sometimes, pple should juz learn things the 'hard way'..falling, picking themselves up and moving on after dusting off. Experience is the best teacher :)
But at the end of the day, I guess I cant help myself from being concerned about A LOT of things tt go on around me...to a point where its stressful to juz think of pple. Its juz me I guess :D Its a weird line..between being a friend and being intrusive...and it does vary from person to person. But I guess I'm pretty much gonna stay the same... I wanna be a friend, that's all :D In case i've ever been intrusive or have offended anyone with my methods of approach, i'm sorry.. But pls do try see where i'm comin from too. Its all about understanding ya ;)
I'm relly glad tt I'm taking up psychology..at least its gonna help me understand pple better & communicate better. Now this, I'm lookin forward to :) It seems pretty daunting ya noe..to go into the finer details of how pple think...how the mind works..It seems pretty deep and u'll never know what u'll find in there. But hey, if I'm serious about people and understanding them/working with them better, this is something I ought to do :) In actual fact, I'm liking it already :D
On a dfferent note, i was listening to Corrinne May's Angel in Disguise earlier on and I couldn't help but be moved by the lyrics...and they get to me every time i listen to the song :) Its a great song...and it has a part that goes like this:

Take a look at the ordinary
Don’t need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise

Man..how true. It's more than juz a song..damn..:P

-simplify- :)

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